Banned Life turned 3 today!
Feels Like We Only Go Backwards by Tame Impala.
My jam at the moment. On repeat.
Super excited! I just ordered these Adidas winter boots online from the Cyber Monday Sale! I can’t wait to have them. It’s been a while that I’ve been looking for new winter boots. And just realised today that I have had the same for nearly three years now! They are still in good condition too… Why would I want new boots then, you ask? Because the boots I have right now are actually getting uncomfortable and starts to hurt my feet. As for these Adidas boots, how can I know if they will fit perfectly? Because Adidas never deceived me when it comes to footwear! We have a long history… =)
I hate to wait… and that’s why I hate any type of commitment.
When you commit yourself to something, it’s like you own someone something… which I don’t like either.
Also, so many people expect something from me while I cannot expect anything from them…
Yes… I do need to slow down my pace… that is… next year.
I admit I am not easy to understand but I don’t think I am that bad since I always end up saying straight up what I think. My actions are another story though. Anyway, what I mean is, I, myself, do not understand other girls.
This one girl told me about how she almost got raped by this guy she was not interested into. Yet, she keeps seeing him. What the F, girl?
Seriously, girls, stand your ground.
What do you respond to that? You can’t say that it’s not true and you can’t say “I know” either. Well, the other day, my friend told me that she thinks, along with another friend, that I am smart. My response was an awkward smile and “I don’t know what to say but thank you”. I explained to her that whenever someone tells me that ( and it actually applies to any compliment ), I just don’t know what to say. Telling them that it’s not true could be offensive and I actually find it annoying when someone denies it (So I avoid doing what other people do that annoys me). On the other hand, you don’t want to come off as a prick.
I mean, I think saying “thank you” is the best thing. But, what do these people expect from you by telling you this?
I’ll tell you the truth though, I know that I am smart but sometimes, I doubt about myself, so this kind of compliment gives out a boost.
So many things are on my mind right now… Things I want to do… Can’t wait to be back into my own space where I should be able to grab anything I need. About 2 months left in Ottawa.
If you had to chose between Love and Dream life/career, what would you choose? This question came up when I went to a (canadian) thanksgiving dinner last week. Well, the girl only asked the boys and they all answered Dream, of course. Why didn’t she ask the girls though? Would girls usually choose Love over Dream? I think it might be partially true according to stereotypes. (Now, not all stereotypes are true).
Anyway, in my case, I would choose my dreams too. Is it because of the way my parents raised me? (Especially my dad teaching me everything he knows) So many times I have thought that I can live happily with my dreams without the love of someone else. Family and friends are enough. I was raised to be independant.
Actually, I think my choice is also the result of past lessons learned. I almost gave myself up to a guy once but things didn’t work out and I just take it as a warning sign.
Also, when I moved out of my house to study far away from home, I was a bit afraid of letting my parents alone because back then, there was a lot of tensions going on. In the end, everything is fine… because that’s how it was meant to be.
Love should follow the dreams, not the opposite.
Today, my research team met to work on our project at 11am. I had to leave at 3:30pm because I was working at 4pm. In my team, there is me and another girl, and a boy. I think we spent more than half of the time trying to figure out who’s the hottest men and women (artists). The other girl and I have completely different taste! We didn’t agree on any of the men we were naming. And actually, her type was more easy to figure out than mine. I actually didn’t know myself if there was something particular that I liked. I only had one actor in mind: Joseph Gordon-Lewitt. Anyway, I think it was funny how the only guy was into this kind of talk. It’s as if we were setting up a date with a Hollywood star.
Now, I can’t take off the image of Joseph Gordon-Lewitt off my head.
It can be rather pleasant.